hello everyone!
well since i'm not in the mood doing my thesis, i will write some lessons that i learnt months ago.
i don't know why, but i think this year is kind of "betrayal" year for me.
i lost some people in my life again.
i found out that he left me alone in order to be with someone, someone that hurt him so bad, and then again he left me and giving another chance to her? second chance? third chance? to be honest, i don't care anymore. hahahaha. well im talking about my past relationship though.
and yes, ive been in a relationship with a guy, literally a bad guy loll (if someday you're reading this, you admitted you're a bad guy loh lol).
it's funny that when your dreams come true, some of you won't believe these, but for me, i do. i do believe that every dreams will be come true someday, and yes! it comes when he's your dream guy? uhmm, noo, he's not my dream guy, he's my crush years ago. hahahha.
so, he's my senior in senior high school. we both know each other but we never talk since i was in high school, i know that he's my friend's boyfriend hehehe but we're friend in Facebook, Twitter, Path and so on. years passed. and then i saw his twitter account it's because in my timeline there's someone retweet his tweet, and i'm kind of woww. but one thing, he has a girlfriend. hahahha. skip and skip, until one time, he loved my photos in my path, and he added my line, then, he said hello! and i was like, oh my God! is this real? it's so funny, never thought that he will do that, saying hello.
okay, so from that day, we started to get to know each other, going out, watching movies, chit-chatting, and it began from morning when we wake up to night when we're going to sleep, doing flirting, valentine's dinner, meet my dad and my mom. we had a great great time. we laughed everywhere, every jokes, singing song together, sharing our secrets, and anything that makes us feel "comfortable" each other. yea, it was really fun and unforgettable.
we started our relationships with the commitments indeed. days became weeks, weeks became months and so on, he changed.
well i guess i don't have to tell you about the details.
i think you know what happened next.
we broke up. it's painful, so painful that i can't describe how hurt it is, i can't think positive in that time, i don't know how to say, but i just need people who love me so much and giving me some things like, cheer up! and kind of thing. Thank God, you always know what i need, my best friends always be there for me, cheering me up, asking me to go out to relieve me from pain, checking me up, and as time goes by, i can think clear, i can see the positive one. i learnt a lot, a lot! i made a mistake too somehow, i should admit it, we can't never change anything like it used to be, because it just..happened.. but we can always learn from our mistakes, right? :)
so, don't blame yourself because of your mistakes, but try to learn from it for moving forward, always believe that there's always something good in any situation and condition, if you never try, you will never know and you will regret for the chance that you had from the first time.
i'm so fineeee today, tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow, and so on it's because i learnt from it. hahaha. i'm happy, i can laugh, i can go everywhere i want of course with my family, my bestfriends, they're my precious things. and you know what? sometimes, the best thing in life is about "gratitude", i don't have a boyfriend, but i have people who loves me just the way i am and being around them is a blessing from God to know that you don't have to expect having a boyfriend who will love you, it is NOT, you can feel love from everyone that around you, like i told you, your family, your bestfriends who really really loves you :)
oh ya, one thing, (and this is my favorite quotes),
a right guy will come in a right time, in a right place, and it's on God's plan, so, no need to rush about your love life, because you will find it sooner or later, yeayyyyy :D
